Thank you

Thank you for the memories.
Thank you for the laughter.
Thank you for the tears.
Thank you for being with me through my fears.
Thank you for your silly action during my tough times.
Thank you for being there to make me smile.

Thank you.

A sudden rush of emotions

Date: 4 April Friday

Time: 0130hrs

Venue: Marina Mandarin Hotel

Purpose: Work

Usually working on a weekend is a norm for me. Recently, i kinda envy people who work office hours and 5 days week. It seems like their life are more enriching, more colourful, more interesting. But i guess i have only myself to blame.

I was never good at studying. I spent 5 years in secondary school when i can finish it in 4 years. I flunked my diploma in SHATEC. I gave my part time studies on Mass Communications because it was too tiring for me to balance work and studies at the same time.

One month before i finished my National Service, i figured i need to find something to do after life in the army. I didnt want to become a bum who stays at home do nothing. Luckily i managed to get a job at Marina Mandarin, a place with familiar faces because i did my attachment here during my SHATEC days.

The only thing i can be proud of is my promotion. Shortly after joining the hotel as a rank and file staff, i was promoted to an Assistant Manager. Although it is the most junior ranked among the manager position, my heart was brimming with pride because the promotion speaks volume of the hard work i have placed in my job. There was no celebration, just a simple dinner treat for my mum and dad. Although they didnt say anything, i knew they were proud of me because this was the only time i have made them proud.

Strangely, i have been having a sudden rush of emotions for the past 2 days. Goodness. What exactly is happening to me? An unofficial relationship, a promotion that was promised 2 years ago but not given, friends changing for the worse, parents sleeping on different beds.

I really want to break free from all these troubles. I want to break free from all these insecurities. I want to break free from all these sadness & anguish.